I realize that people are probably tired of hearing about the tornadoes, but it's all that I think about.
I have been having bad dreams, not sleeping well, and generally in a funk. I am so thankful that everyone I know was safe, but it's so hard to see the devastation around us. A high school friend's house was destroyed.. so many of my own memories in that house. :(
The town has really pulled together. I think most people have power. But businesses destroyed. Homes destroyed. It's so easy for me not to want to leave the comfort of my cocoon. I have power. Internet. A house.
I have been on an emotional rollercoaster in the past 2 weeks... thankful. nostalgic... and angry. Angry at people living their own lives. Tweeting about going to Starbucks or shopping. Do they not know what I see on a daily basis? People trying to pick up the pieces, literally, of their lives and businesses and churches. It's a complete culture shock. I was so angry for a while about everything. Not about what happened, but how people reacted.
But I have been on that other end of the stick. "Will they not stop talking about Katrina?" Or even now, I am guilty. I have power and internet, so I am back living my life. Like nothing's changed.
I hate going into town and seeing what has been destroyed. It's all Addison will talk about. "Look at that damage, Mama. Look at what that mean ol' tornado did. I am so mad at that tornado- someone needs to kick it's hiney." And I've even heard, "I don't want that tornado to eat me. I am scared of tornadoes." And she keeps asking where so and so's safe place was. It's too much. My baby shouldn't have to worry about things like this.
It's time like these that I am so proud to be from a place like this. People helping people. It's what we should do. Not judge others, but offer a helping hand to those who need it.
School started back today. I am hoping for more and more normalcy around here. I know we could all use it.
I am ready for the healing and rebuilding process. I am trying to work on my emotions and get back to a happier place.. one that involves fashion posts and running. :)
